During the upheaval surrounding Oyashiro-sama's curse in 1982, I was pulled this way and that by new leads on Satoshi-kun's disappearance. Every time I found information that looked promising, I kept changing my theories.
But that also became an incredible burden on me.
...It wore me down plenty on its own.
The fatigue was harsh, but it also provided a very kind acceptance.
Bit by bit it soothed away the anger, sadness, and doubt that wore me down.
"I'll never forget Satoshi-kun."
"I'll never try to forget him and move on."
I constantly repeated those to myself in my head.
I repeated them... to keep my memories of Satoshi-kun from fading too.
Over,
and over.
For the sake of my fun memories of Satoshi-kun...
...together with my fear,
and my sadness,
I repeated them forever and ever.